Wow. I have been swamped with no real time to blog, much less process any feelings I might have so this post covers 3 days.
I will say that although I am terribly behind, I am not beating myself up about it because I recognize I’m doing the best I can under the circumstances.
Moving on. So I am sitting in the airport at the ass crack of dawn catching a red eye headed to a retreat that I am somehow co-facilitating.
It’s early. And though I am freshly showered and dressed, I am comfortably dressed. Adidas soccer Climacool pants, Adidas edgelux kicks and my Nope t-shirt. The last element is key. Although I am a wildly positive person, this tee is my absolute fave. Here’s why: It sums up so many times how I feel.
And I am learning that I need to say No or Nope more often.
I have spent many years, I’d say the majority if my life as a Yes person. I accommodate everyone else and my needs get met last or never at all. So this t-shirt is interesting for a number of reasons.
1. It’s assertive, and that’s new for me.
2. People see me wearing it and assume I’m unfriendly. Not true. And it does make me a bit uncomfortable thinking that people believe I’m unfriendly, but not uncomfortable enough to make me stop wearing the shirt. And honestly, what others think of me is none of my business.
3. People leave me alone because of it, which has its benefits since I’m an introvert.
4. It speaks volumes without me saying a word.
For such a simple piece if fabric, it’s really powerful. And despite all the potentially negative associations it could summon, I love it. And it feels like an extension of the new me. And I so welcome it. With open arms. Think I wouldn’t? Nope