Today it was hard to really pin down how I’m feeling. I feel like I am able to observe much my life but not feel like I am participating in it much.
It’s not that I feel numb, at least I don’t think so, which is progress, but I feel detached from my life somehow. It almost feels like a thing unto itself, something separate and apart from me.
I can see it clearly, but I can’t connect with it. I feel like this is what purgatory might feel like, if I believed in such a place.
This begs the question: How do I reconnect with my life? Where did I lose the connection?
I question my purpose for being here lately. I am confident I have one, but I have yet to find my tribe. Does everyone have a tribe? Or am I just meant to go it alone?
Ugh! All these existential questions are making me feel even more detached. So I’ll stop I’ll stop musing about it all and maybe then if I sit with it a bit, I can get clarity.
And hopefully with clarity, I can get reconnected.