Day 145/365: Off

Ugh. So many things in my life feel off, particularly today. My sleep schedule is off. My eating schedule is off. My workout schedule is off. My work schedule is off. And as a result, I feel off. How did things get so off track? I mean I am a person who thrives on structure.... Continue Reading →

Day 144/365: Autopilot

Do you ever feel like you're not pulling your weight? I mean we could all, always be doing more, right? But how much is really enough? Right now, I don't feel engaged. I'm just going through the motions. And I'm waiting for something to kick in. I don't know if I feel like I'll just wake... Continue Reading →

Day 143/365: Gifted

Today I had two really interesting experiences. One person older than me told me that I inspire them, which meant so much to me because she's such a loving soul. And a younger person and I had a really honest discussion about some tough topics and I felt really good that this individual could come... Continue Reading →

Day 142/365: Noncommital

I've noticed that my wardrobe of late has grown increasingly gray. Heathered gray mostly, but gray nonetheless. This is unusual for me because I absolutely LOVE color. In fact, I love it so much I used to blog about it. So my wardrobe is full of color. But lately I find I'm gravitating toward gray... Continue Reading →

Day 141/365: Crabby

I woke up feeling crabby and irritable today. It stems from feeling like I have no place. I realize that there is so much intersectionality in my life and so many boxes I can check off that I feel like I have no real place where I belong. And then I get this nagging, like... Continue Reading →

Day 140/365: (missing) #BGM

I was catching up on Season 2, episode 2 of Queen Sugar. Nova Bordelon knew her sister, Charley, needed her so she came over and they had well, a sisterly moment. I grew up with a brother, who I adored, still do, and always wanted another sibling. A younger brother, which I kind of got... Continue Reading →

Day 139/365: Lucky

I went to bed with a migraine last night and woke up with one this morning. It's bad going to bed with one, but it's even worse to wake up to it. In fact, it remains as I type this. And sh*t just went sideways today. I had to deal with a technical glitch that... Continue Reading →

Day 138/365: Torn

Today is my best friend's birthday and I feel torn. And torn up. I saw the date come up on my phone yesterday and my stomach sank. We haven't talked in forever. And our last conversation, via text no less, was not good at all. I would love to extend her birthday wishes, but I... Continue Reading →

Day 137/365: Insecure

At first I thought it was perfectionism. But I feel like it's really insecurity masking as perfectionism. I am in an introvert, but I'm having to be out in the public more and more, which some days makes me want to break out in hives. It's uncomfortable—and inevitable. And the only way to get through... Continue Reading →

Day 136/365: Introverted

On the Myers-Briggs scale I am decidedly an INFJ—the most introverted of introverts. In the last 5 days, I went outside twice, and only briefly both times. And I don't feel cagey at all. In fact, I'm loving spending some time alone. I feel so much more powerful when I'm not amongst others. But I... Continue Reading →

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