I am covering 2 days because I did not have it in me to post yesterday. Today, is the 6th anniversary of my mother’s passing. I know the date, but I forget that in the few days before, my mood begins to change. It’s like I’m feeling the loss all over again. The pain seems endless.
I still miss her, dearly and very deeply. She was my rock, and the loss was profound. But I find little ways to celebrate her. Like, she used to grab a Snickers bar on the way home from work. So today, my wife and I went to get DQ Snickers Blizzards. It was awesome and a fun way to remember her. I usually see her star in the sky, but it was cloudy the other night so I couldn’t really find her in the night sky. But I still knew she was there. I could feel her.
What is a tough day each year makes me recognize that I’m so grateful to have had as much time with her as I did, and that I couldn’t ask for a better mother.
It’s not the same without you here, Ma, but I get it. You’re perfectly fine where you are too. Love and miss you!