For the past few days I have had an uneasy feeling in my belly. I’m not quite sure what has me on edge though. I have many things that are brewing all in various stages of progress. It’s not that I want anything to culminate. Or at least I’m not anxious about it anyway. But I feel anxious about something.
Ahhh, that reminds me. When my mother was alive and I would talk with her about anything that made me nervous or upset, she would calmly remind me of Bible quote:
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
I am not very religious anymore, but I am deeply spiritual. And this quote for me is like a balm. Such sweet succor when I need it most. In fact, my partner so understood its value that she gifted me a beautiful silver box with the inscription “Be anxious for nothing.” Whenever I see those words, I am instantly calmed. And I’m able to smile and be reminded of my own personal power and strength, which my mom so generously helped me to cultivate.
So with that in mind, I guess I don’t even have to wonder what’s really bothering me. (Although if I think about it, it’s probably that there are so many unknowns and variables and I have to start so many new things that I’m slightly overwhelmed, a bit excited and super nervous. Eek!)
But that’s not really important because I have no need to be anxious over any of this. I can simply offer up a prayer of gratitude that I have been blessed to have all of these opportunities in my lap and at my doorstep. And from there, I will do the best I can to manage it all with grace and a peaceful, loving, grateful heart.