I have only recently learned to really look at myself in the mirror and enjoy what I see looking back at me. It has taken me years to get to this point and it has not been an easy road, but I love being able to do this.
So when I saw Ari Fitz’s latest vlog entitled GAZE, I was shook. This YouTube creator is unapologetically herself in any and everything that she does. She always shows up as her most authentic self. If you don’t know who she is, then get acquainted with her here. She will inspire you and a light a fire in you in ways you never imagined.
In this particular video, she turns the lens on herself in a way that really spoke to me. It’s about taking a good hard look at all the things in our lives that we turn away from, be it your fears, onlookers, whatever it is, and stare it boldly in the face.
This blog hopefully day by day is allowing me to do just that. But I’m also going to challenge myself. I notice that I have a tendency to walk with my head up, which is great, but I rarely meet another’s gaze, particularly strangers.
In a city like Chicago this is not always the wisest thing to do as you may invite all types of crazy into your life. However, not ever doing it makes me feel like I’m unwilling to make connections with others. And if my Connection post means anything, then it’s so important and meaningful to find ways to feel connected to others, and to myself.
So from now on, at least once a day, I will hold the gaze of a stranger, and experience what that feels like. Even if it feels uncomfortable and I feel compelled to look away, I’ll hold it just a big longer.
My hope is that when I keep this up, it will feel natural to connect with others in this way, and more natural to connect with myself.